Life Is Better

Haven't blogged in a minute yo. Damn so we got like tomorrow then friday, then 4 days next week then we on spring break! Still hella whack though compared to the other schools in the area, they're already on break for 2 weeks while we only get 1 week. Finally started driving again plus my birthday is coming up soon! Well over the weekend me and some peeps had a conversation about how we've all really grown up. Like people say we're immature blah blah blah but like do we act like shit that we're not? Nope. Plus we really are like the deepest people a person could probably talk to. Most people nowadays are really shallow. Not gonna say any names but like sometimes it's kinda hard to go deep with them you know? Then we also went on in the conversation about real people and shit. Not really gonna go in depth on that one though. I've also learned that my confidence has really built since like middle school haha. Seery-yos though like I'm not afraid to yell my fucking heart out anymore. Like stav said we really just hit that age were we just don't give a fuck what other people think anymore. You know like some people say oh i don't give a fuck about the haters blah blah blah but they just say that shit to act hard and what not. But this shit right here is like some real shit. Like you shouldn't care what people think about you, you should care what your close friends think though. Like foreal friends are really the greatest things that were placed on this earth for you. Friends got you through the best and worst of times and hopefully you got them to. I believe you don't only reflect your parents or the people who raised you but more to the side of your surroundings. Since i spend a lot of time around my homies they're really who kinda made me what i am now. We all have a little bit of each other inside haha no homo though. But i don't know what i'd do without my friends. Even though the past weekends have been whack it feels good that i have homies who i can hit up or they hit me back. Some people i don't know what the future holds for us. You guys just gonna peace out and be done with us after high school or what? All i know is even though we're gonna go our separate ways next year, we still finna be homies. People say like oh we'll still be best friends forever after high school blah blah blah but you know what i don't think it can really happen unless you end up in the same place as them which is highly unlikely depending on what your pursuit is. But years from now it's just like the present, i got homies who i use to kick it with back in middle school, elementary but i know some of them are the realest dudes that are still there for me. Some people just fade to black when you don't chop it up with them no more, hang out etc... but these dudes is different. Like connections with certain people are just hella good that you could be distant from them for a long ass time but they'll still be your dude you know? But damn yo this blog is getting a little too long haha I need to get back to my chemistry though. Outie 5000!

The Problem Is

Maybe in the future I'll try, but for now, forget it. Not even worth it. Some of you might know what I'm talking about, I'm just not feelin' it right now. Tellin' me go for it I don't think it's gonna work I keep gettin' boxed out feel me? Outie.

Maybe it was meant to be, but who's gon' guarantee? - Dukus Alemay

Teach You a Lesson

What a weekend...

You shouldn't do drugs that are harder than you. If you a soft mothafucker, you shouldn't do hard drugs!...the hangover in the morning is going to beat yo ass. - MURS

Pure Thoughts

my god im so bored. dont have cod cuz nick has it. slept all day so i cant fall asleep. already did my homework. no1 is online to talk to. jason isnt in waters end so i can chill wit him rite now. no car. no nothing. im soooooooooooo boredd!!!!

Dear Whoever

Happy Birthday Peter! so uhh today my parents let me go out but im still grounded. well i guess it was ight. dint realy do shit tho. posted in the weight room after skool, chiled at matts, then watched every1 get a haircut. cudnt decide wat to do back in benicia so we went to kams cuzns house out in rancho. it was watever n now im home. shit basically locked up the whole weekend again =[. unless somebody decides to go to a museum ur sumtin skool related i can get out haha. shit. so at that position again of well trying even though i havent actually tried yet. dunno. obstacles in the way n i dnt want complications in the end. dunno if its worth havin that happen. ppl tellin me to do it but still i dunno. holding back. chokin on words dunno wat it is. well lets just see. wat happens happens. outie.




I'm so down to earth how the hell I touch ceilings. - Strange Fruit Project

Summer

i fucking miss summer. i miss the heat. i miss the fact u can just like rock shirts all the time n shit. i miss the late sunsets n just chillaxin every fuckin day. i miss wen we wud just go to the park on the daily, just hit up the courts or sit around n just fukn chill. or just sittin on top of the hill overlookin that shit n just chillin, sippin on like some fukn ice cold ass drink. the cold of winter is beginning to piss me off. grey skies, grey clouds, rarely any nice days. rain fukn tired of it. makes the days kind of depressing. early sunsets are pretty whack to. always gotta bundle up n shit plus i got like no winter clothes haha. then here comes spring woo fucking hoo. allergies i fuckin hate em. my bday thats kinda crackin i guess. spring breaks koo. i cant fucking wait for skool to get out. 3 more months. proly fina have the best summer of our lives. miggys gunna b back n the crew is complete again. next years summer will b a summer of goodbyes =[.

u kno wat else is im tired of all these ppl fighting. i hear of a construction worker gettin jumped in vallejo high wtf is up wit that shit. fights in skool all the time now. hella ppl talking shit. blowin up formspring fukn stalker knows hella shit bout the crew hopefully its not a homie cuz thats just sad. im just fucking tired of the bullshit that human kind does to its surroundings. humans are such fukn assholes. like come on take haiti for example. just got super fucked up by that earthquake. peeps literally takin kids off the street n sellin em for like prostitution n shit in other countries wtf is that shit.

n guess wat fucking else. i fucking crashed over the weekend luckily i dint die n the car dnt looked fucked up. i swear that shit better run the same wen it gets repaired. im such a fukn dumbass for that. like i said humans are dumbasses just like the fukn dumbass move i pulled ther. school is pissin me off to. lightweight slacking i hate how one test can fuck ur grade up. motha fucka and im grounded for that dumbass crash. fuckk life rite now man shit. outie.

Summer don't love me no more. - Matt Blaque

After I'm Gone

Soooo got my homework done early for once in hella long. i needa start sleepin earlier not gettin enough z's. nowadays im always tired but thats not the only thing. for awhile now ive just been thinkin bout shit again. i kno ive probly blogged this like hella times already but shit bear with me. i dnt even think any1 reads this shiznit no more bloggers dead haha. everyones on the formspreezy hype. but anyway idk. like is it wrong bout the shit i keep thinkin bout. i mean its been forever already i dnt see y it just caught up on me all of a sudden again. is it lies or is it just a joke or wat its just sumtin i keep pondering on. like am i just forgotten or am i still in those thoughts. basically i just feel hopeless i guess. got the best crew of friends a dude cud hav around me. every1 around me hooked up or hookin up n yet i get nowhere. ppl ask me of my opinion of a person but its always the same answer. no. is it cuz i just keep comparin one to another or wat is it. nothings ever caught my eye since that mabe thats y. ive probly confused you the reader haha sorry. *sigh. <----- thats proly like how i feel right now. like sure i seem hella happy n shit n a funny ass dude but wen the funsies r over its back to the sighs, sitting n thinking, whether it be this or that or watever its like a sinking feeling almost. distanced from the rest of the world. a problem unsolved yet not wanting to be solved except by its owner. haha that shit was hella poetic ayeeeee tai status!! its only 1116 and i dnt wana go to bed yet. so i think ill try n make this blog as long as possible till i cant think of anymore shit. uhh so mabe this weekend will b crackin? rollin deep sumwhere on friday nite? yet all the fun in the world cant save me from the sinking. i kinda found a distraction or u cud say another flash in the darkness yet its already gone n im not the kinda dude to fuck with shit like that cuz it mite just backfire on me. there it is again i see it yet not enough balls to confront fears. is it that im just a puss or wat is it. am i worried ill fuck shit up ur sumtin. i just dnt kno. so off topic again haha i just realized that thing mr nelson said how like stories are ther wen we forget memories or someshit. like thats true like this blogging shit is fukn tight like one day ill just be lookin back on it n ill just b like damn i remember how that felt or damn that was a crackin ass weekend ur sumtin. life goes too fast wen u dnt want it to but wen u wish u cud just get out its slower than u can imagine. wer only on this earth for so long and yet its still not long enough. ive been livin life for the past 16 years n yet the past 1 or 2 have been the fastest but also the most crackin. n now thers more shit to worry bout since this dumbass economy aint fixin up. shit gotta worry bout the future like fuck im graduating next year n its off to college. after that the fun n games is over n its time to be responsible for shit. ahhhh watever im out this blog is goin nowhere haha. peace outieeeee.

Life is a seesaw, up and down. - Raashan Ahmad