After I'm Gone

Soooo got my homework done early for once in hella long. i needa start sleepin earlier not gettin enough z's. nowadays im always tired but thats not the only thing. for awhile now ive just been thinkin bout shit again. i kno ive probly blogged this like hella times already but shit bear with me. i dnt even think any1 reads this shiznit no more bloggers dead haha. everyones on the formspreezy hype. but anyway idk. like is it wrong bout the shit i keep thinkin bout. i mean its been forever already i dnt see y it just caught up on me all of a sudden again. is it lies or is it just a joke or wat its just sumtin i keep pondering on. like am i just forgotten or am i still in those thoughts. basically i just feel hopeless i guess. got the best crew of friends a dude cud hav around me. every1 around me hooked up or hookin up n yet i get nowhere. ppl ask me of my opinion of a person but its always the same answer. no. is it cuz i just keep comparin one to another or wat is it. nothings ever caught my eye since that mabe thats y. ive probly confused you the reader haha sorry. *sigh. <----- thats proly like how i feel right now. like sure i seem hella happy n shit n a funny ass dude but wen the funsies r over its back to the sighs, sitting n thinking, whether it be this or that or watever its like a sinking feeling almost. distanced from the rest of the world. a problem unsolved yet not wanting to be solved except by its owner. haha that shit was hella poetic ayeeeee tai status!! its only 1116 and i dnt wana go to bed yet. so i think ill try n make this blog as long as possible till i cant think of anymore shit. uhh so mabe this weekend will b crackin? rollin deep sumwhere on friday nite? yet all the fun in the world cant save me from the sinking. i kinda found a distraction or u cud say another flash in the darkness yet its already gone n im not the kinda dude to fuck with shit like that cuz it mite just backfire on me. there it is again i see it yet not enough balls to confront fears. is it that im just a puss or wat is it. am i worried ill fuck shit up ur sumtin. i just dnt kno. so off topic again haha i just realized that thing mr nelson said how like stories are ther wen we forget memories or someshit. like thats true like this blogging shit is fukn tight like one day ill just be lookin back on it n ill just b like damn i remember how that felt or damn that was a crackin ass weekend ur sumtin. life goes too fast wen u dnt want it to but wen u wish u cud just get out its slower than u can imagine. wer only on this earth for so long and yet its still not long enough. ive been livin life for the past 16 years n yet the past 1 or 2 have been the fastest but also the most crackin. n now thers more shit to worry bout since this dumbass economy aint fixin up. shit gotta worry bout the future like fuck im graduating next year n its off to college. after that the fun n games is over n its time to be responsible for shit. ahhhh watever im out this blog is goin nowhere haha. peace outieeeee.

Life is a seesaw, up and down. - Raashan Ahmad