After I'm Gone

Soooo got my homework done early for once in hella long. i needa start sleepin earlier not gettin enough z's. nowadays im always tired but thats not the only thing. for awhile now ive just been thinkin bout shit again. i kno ive probly blogged this like hella times already but shit bear with me. i dnt even think any1 reads this shiznit no more bloggers dead haha. everyones on the formspreezy hype. but anyway idk. like is it wrong bout the shit i keep thinkin bout. i mean its been forever already i dnt see y it just caught up on me all of a sudden again. is it lies or is it just a joke or wat its just sumtin i keep pondering on. like am i just forgotten or am i still in those thoughts. basically i just feel hopeless i guess. got the best crew of friends a dude cud hav around me. every1 around me hooked up or hookin up n yet i get nowhere. ppl ask me of my opinion of a person but its always the same answer. no. is it cuz i just keep comparin one to another or wat is it. nothings ever caught my eye since that mabe thats y. ive probly confused you the reader haha sorry. *sigh. <----- thats proly like how i feel right now. like sure i seem hella happy n shit n a funny ass dude but wen the funsies r over its back to the sighs, sitting n thinking, whether it be this or that or watever its like a sinking feeling almost. distanced from the rest of the world. a problem unsolved yet not wanting to be solved except by its owner. haha that shit was hella poetic ayeeeee tai status!! its only 1116 and i dnt wana go to bed yet. so i think ill try n make this blog as long as possible till i cant think of anymore shit. uhh so mabe this weekend will b crackin? rollin deep sumwhere on friday nite? yet all the fun in the world cant save me from the sinking. i kinda found a distraction or u cud say another flash in the darkness yet its already gone n im not the kinda dude to fuck with shit like that cuz it mite just backfire on me. there it is again i see it yet not enough balls to confront fears. is it that im just a puss or wat is it. am i worried ill fuck shit up ur sumtin. i just dnt kno. so off topic again haha i just realized that thing mr nelson said how like stories are ther wen we forget memories or someshit. like thats true like this blogging shit is fukn tight like one day ill just be lookin back on it n ill just b like damn i remember how that felt or damn that was a crackin ass weekend ur sumtin. life goes too fast wen u dnt want it to but wen u wish u cud just get out its slower than u can imagine. wer only on this earth for so long and yet its still not long enough. ive been livin life for the past 16 years n yet the past 1 or 2 have been the fastest but also the most crackin. n now thers more shit to worry bout since this dumbass economy aint fixin up. shit gotta worry bout the future like fuck im graduating next year n its off to college. after that the fun n games is over n its time to be responsible for shit. ahhhh watever im out this blog is goin nowhere haha. peace outieeeee.

Life is a seesaw, up and down. - Raashan Ahmad

Exhibit C

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I make the devil hit his knees and say the Our Father. - Jay Electronica

Hey Young World

damn yo havent blogged in a minute. well so 4 day weekend been crackin. so friday, grizzly peaks wit xavier, ari, mando, peter, matt, kam and tai. after we got in n out n just chilled in the parking lot hella crackin. saturday nite jas had a party. me, nick, brett, mando n peter went. hellllllllllla crackin we needa get to another one. yesterday nite, twin peaks wit pat, matt, nick, jas, peter, brett, ciarian, kam, tai, ari, will, axl, daniel, aus and gabe. wendys in pinole afterward n gaby met up wit us to. dropped everyone off. pat n nick slept over. cod4 all nite hella funsies. so shiet still got hella homework to do. holdin that off till tommorow tho, bad fukn idea haha. so the fun of another weekend is coming to an end n yet i still feel well i dunno. lookin out ther at the grey skies, just cruisin in the car it kinda makes me feel distant from the world. like right now i dunno, im just sittin here, thinkin n shit. whackness. half of the school year has gone by yet again. god does this life just fly by fast dnt it? seemed like growing up was hella slow n as soon as we hit our fun years in high school shit just went fast huh. well im out enough wit the sad talks haha. outie.

World Is Empty

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Rap Up 2009

So i guess its lightweight late for this but its watever. so 2009. wat a fukn year. probly the best year so far. stepped up hella in school finally. got my license finally. finally tried to get at someone but that ended quick haha. gained more friends. lost some friends. rip miggy! i feel like our circle of friends has become a lot closer to. so hella shit has happened n i cant even remember really. anyways so today woke up at 4 in the afternoon. forza. dinner. swoop nick, tyler, jas. get sonics. get kam. grizzly peak. race back to vallejo in 10 mins. smoked that nigga. now im home.

Things to Look Forward to in 2010: becoming a senior, getting braces off in like 2 days!, legally driving ppl (in december =[), miggy coming back over the summer! (hopefully he goes back to skool here to), fixing up my car n such, getting a job?, changing my single status? haha outie!

I just haven't met you yet. - Michael Bublé

99 Problems

10 things I wanted for Christmas:

1.rims
2.lowering springs
3.take out my resonator
4.shave off the back of the lancer
5.red mitsubishi emblem
6.ipod adapter
7.money
8.pink g-shock
9.shoes
10.you

9 musicians/bands you love:

1.passion pit
2.people under the stairs
3.kero one
4.nas
5.dj deckstream
6.crown city rockers
7.lupe fiasco
8.wale
9.the roots

8 things you do everyday:

1.wake up
2.eat
3.walk
4.drink
5.computadora
6.smile
7.listen to music
8.sleep

7 things you enjoy:

1.driving
2.singing
3.photography
4.late night drives
5.the city
6.bonfire
7.jazz music

6 things that will always win your heart:

1.sense of humor
2.cute face
3.asians
4.music similarities
5.unique
6.smart

5 favourites:

1.Movie: right now? probly avatar
2.Song: too many
3.Book: harry potter
4.Food: too many
5.Season: winter or summer

4 smells or scents you enjoy:


1.my cologne
2.fresh cut wood
3.something burnt n u can smell it at night when u step outside
4.fresh air

3 places you want to go:

1.ny
2.phillipines
3.japan

2 Favorite Holidays

1.Christmas
2.Thanksgiving

1 person you’d marry on the spot:

1.lauren london yeeeeeee