When the Sunshine Comes

how cute haha.

Everything

sick. not crackin.

Swallow your pride before you choke on your issues, I know you got family and folks that'll miss you, so don't misuse this gift you've been given, this life's but a dream, you're blessed to be livin. - MURS

Beneath The Surface

Damn havent blogged in a minute ha. well so far breaks been ight ya kno not really anything super crackin n hella defining but its whatever. thanksgiving was ok. i basically cooked the dinner cuz my mom was at work. idk i like honey ham more than turkey but we only had turkey this year. soo ari told me n nick to wake up at 3 to go to the concord mall for black friday sale. nigga dint even swoop us till like 5 haha. n i only had like an hour of sleep so i felt like poop. anyways so we got ther. copped sum jeans at macys, fukn 40 minute long line hella whack the fukn cashier was obliviously a noob haha. bought a hoodie at h&m. nick bought me sum jeans from tillys pretty koo. soo we wer ther from 5-2, like it was koo how i copped shit but at the same time like i dint feel good at all like i think im gettin the flu so yeah it wasnt really that good either. like we went on a mission to the furniture section of macys and fukn crashed for like an hour i was just knocked out. aris parents treated us to todais it was ight. daniel was wit us for a bit. jape was wit us for a bit to but that nigga hella catted haha jk. we seen cj n jason to. finally got home after wat was like the most grueling time ive ever had in the mall. slept from like 3-9. parents bring me pho for dinner. nicks came over n he just left. yeahh. i think im fina sleep now tho. even though i just slept for like 89406847064034 hours im still hella tired. fuckkkk i hope i dnt get super sick n of all times y now at the end of break. anyways tradin my dooms for ray fong adidas n $100 mann i dnt wana let these babies go but i need that paperrrrr for the ps3 haha. most likely no1 fina cop my 11s of bapes but its wutever. hopin to buy this dudes ps3 for like $200 cuz its a good ass deal. i dnt want my parents buyin me all this shit like they offered to spend $400 on the new ps3 plus like other shit i need for it n like nawwwww not even thats just doin too much i feel hella bad. so yeah if i dnt come up wit enough cash its watever on the ps3 ill just buy idk watever cuz my parents r already gettin a hook up for the ipod in the lancer n that probly costs bank so yeah. well overall this break has been ight but back to skool on monday for like another 3 weeks? then its christmas!!!!!! wooooo fav time of the year. finna get that have my licensia on the 11th hopefully! then ayeeeeeeeee we fina get it poppin!! outie.

Haters shake my hand but I keep the sanitizer on deck.....Most of the clean faces be the most dirty.....I am happy, that's just the saddest lie. - Kid Cudi

Lights Please

How you make the darkness seem so bright? - J. Cole

Day by Day

soo break got out today. school was ight same old shit. got home. slept till like 7? cj swoops me n we get his friend chris. hit up concord mall. go to walnut creek n walk round. head to l&l at the vallejo plaza. go to matt's house n chill wit him n pat. go to the park n ball for a bit hella funsies. go to cjs. hit up 711. now i is home wit jason. soooooo hopefully i fukn get a ps3 this break. need to get on that codmw2!! outie.

It ain't over here it comes again, holdin' on my shoulder so I can't hold it in, life in a balance seein how we did, and when you get there it's time to go again. - Living Legends

One Day It'll All Make Sense

ok its fukn like 158 at night. y the fuck am i still up? i need to stop procrastinating homework every night. i swear i sleep like between 2-3 every fuckin school day man so i only get like 5 6 hours of sleep not even crackin. then wen i get home from skool i nap like hella long cuz im super tired. need to fukn switch up the pattern mayne! but yeahh. so anyways. shit still buggin me after hella long already. like foreal just fukn go away n sail on or give me a sign. its really just hella annoying now. ahhhh watever. out.

Sail on. - Lionel Richie

Pulse of the People

I know it's easy to imagine but it's easier to just do. See, if you can't do what you imagine, then what is imagination to you? - Kid Cudi

They Always Know

so yesterday pacquaio fight. random ass mix of ppl in my house but wutever still hella crackin. ppl leave n me n nick chill n sit on the monkey bars out back for a bit. he leaves. slept. today went to emeryville. walked around. got a hoodie from h&m woohoo. now im home. fina start homework. life cud and shud b better. outie.



From a head full of pressure, as the senses that I clutch, made a date with divinity but she wouldn't let me fuck, I got touched by a hazy shade of god, help me change, caught a rush on the floor from the life in my veins. - Slug

Hello my name is

school. game. chill wit peter n kam. goin to bed. outie. PACQUIAO FIGHT TOMMOROW WOOOOOOO!!

Death before dishonor, argue with a dumb mothafucka you just dumber. - GLC

Go Away

had today off. so last nite went to christians for awhile. hella peeps. wrestled. went to nicks. chilled on the trampoline wit brett christian greg nick and jason. peeps leave n its just me n nick. kam comes. we fall asleep round 1. kam leaves in the morning. me n nick wake up. head to my house. brett comes. halo wars. get to xaviers for a fresh cut. daniel comes. we all go to the plaza. l&l for dinner. go home. doing homework rite now. thank god we had today off n thank god tommorow is thursday haha. whack tho still got super ultra mega homework left. chem test tommorow. so basically if i get my spanish up for 88 to an A ill have straight A's haha crackinnnnnnn. gettin my license exactly a month from today yee!! outie.

This love is enough to start a war. - Colin Munroe

Sealed for Freshness

So poop ass day. slept like usual late last nite but for some reason today was really idk i was so tired. lookin forward to tommorow cuz we got the next day off. proly stay the nite at nicks. im tryna get haircut on wednesday to n idk wat else. hopefully this weekend is koo. bethel benicia game on friday then hopefully my last driving lesson over the weekend yeeee. outie.

A man can be destroyed but not defeated. - Ernest Hemingway

Moving At the Speed Of Life

Super ultra mega fucking bored.

It's a New Day

So since all my tight peeps are starting to blog about everyone i guess ill just have to hop on the boat haha. By the way the way i order you doesnt have anything to do with how close you are to me so dont be offended haha. sorry these arent too detailed but oh well.

Miggy Exconde - so many memories weve had. me u kam n peter wer really tight back then. u started changing for the worse but u became a cool ass nigga again near the end. i kno u treated me like shit for so long but u kno me i have a high tolerance for that kinda stuff. i guess now u realize shit n i cant wait for yo ass to come stay wit me during summer. even tho 540646403543054 miles away u still ma fukn nigga n i love you yes homo.

Jason Gorospe - im sorry for being such a douche too u so many times over the years. n im sorry that i brush u off sometimes during skool haha. but ur really my best friend. i know a lot of ppl cant see that in u but watever. ur one of the only ppl that i can come to talk to about anything. wer basically like bros nigga. but yeah uhm i dnt really have anything else to say haha.

Nick De Vigal - so like basically we thot we hated each other for like all of freshman year n half of sophmore year? haha anyway we got kinda tight last year. at first i cudnt realy tolerate ur violent behavior but i got over it n we got hella tight. ur really a deep ass nigga n ur one of my closest niggas that ive ever had. u also introduced me to all the bethel peeps which expanded my group of friends n im really thankful for that. we got them long ass jokes in the car to haha RANCH! anyways dnt wana make this too long but yeah u different from a lot of the other peeps n u coo for that.

Patrick Salientes - our friendship started reaally turbulent. u hit me freshman year n i dint hit u back cuz i wanted to stay homies. we got hella tight really slowly n ever since miggy left i guess i been ur tightest nigga haha. u can b an asshole at times n just not even b considerate but ur still a cool ass dude. n i really like how u apologized to every1 especially gaby haha. but yeah if only u wer around more to kick it man yo mams is whack doh. but yeah u ma nigga.

Brett Imel - u wer like one of my first friends in benicia. we been friends for hella long man. thanks for takin us off all the time. u use to b hella vicious n shit but uve calmed down. u a cool ass nigga n i hope u never fade off from me. remember ATS? haha hella funny cuz u stopped talkin hella shit to. anyways yeah uhh ight haha.

Matthew Crisostomo - so like basically u jacked shit from me wit gustavo back in the day haha. n we thot we hated each other like whole freshman year. well mabe u did idk haha. then sophmore year we got kinda close. then summer like we got hella tight man. remember that one time i was onnnnn at jasons n u miggy walked me home. u guys r real niggas for that. but yeah we hung out like almost everyday during the summer bro. u really like just the nicest person i kno n hella real n i love u for that cuhzz.

Peter Reyes - so we became friends in like 8th grade huh. back in the busty days haha. remember wen kameron wud call u n b like good night best friend? hahaha funny shit. so yeah man like ur one of the last niggas on earth that r hella real. weve kinda faded off for a bit but i hope we become hella tight again man. ur one of the dudes i wud never wana lose. i consider u like one of the core niggas cuz really wer like the base of the crew besides other peeps haha but u ma bro.

Kameron Rojas- wsup B-RO?? haha guam bomb nigga fenadeni sauce nigga watever u definetly a coo ass nigga n definetly my bro. back then it was really just me u n migs man. nuthin cud fuck wit the triangle haha. u wer hella violent back then but now i understand. uve calmed down to n ur just a chill ass dude now. even tho we never really kick it so much i feel wer still just hella tight man. ull always b one of my best friends n one of those dudes i never want to lose.

Tyler Terrazas - sooo we got kinda tight over freshman year till now. we never got really tight but u definetly my niga. u talked hella shit back then n u kinda still do but not really to me haha. thats just u tho shit that runs in ur family hahaha. but ur a coo ass dude n definelty one of my niggas.

Armando Martinez - ur definetly a real nigga. uve never disappointed me or shit any1 that i can think of. ur so nice and hella forgiving. forgiving enough to forgive that one person n he fucks up again. wer not that tight but ur definetly ma nigga n a keeper.

Ryan Salas - me n u wit miggy n kam use to be hella tight bro. idk wat happened thoo u kinda drifted off. but even till now like i told u wer always gunna b niggas. u one of my first best friends n u never disappointed me. ur a koo ass nigga n we shud start kickin it again.

Tai Aczon - so we just started gettin kinda tight. im sorry for not really appreciatin u tryna kick it wit us b4 n i regret it. ur a deep ass foo n ur hella coo for that. ur always dwn to kick it n shit. anyways u just got "born" haha but yeah stay coo.

Marcus Lew - yes im writing an entry about u. even though i dnt even kno if wer friends anymore watever. so weve had big ass arguments like back in 7th grade summer wen we wanted to fight. n mabe now idk mabe u want to fight me. but idk its been hard to b ur friend cuz ur so shady. ive finally realized that n yeah. idk wat else to say. its time to move on.

Arianna Lagrimas - so we wernt really tight last year. i dnt even kno if we wer friends freshman year haha. we got hella tight tho since this school year started. ur a coo ass chick n i can talk to u about a lot of stuff. u helped me through situations n ur advice really ended up workin. hopefully we never fade cuz ur a keeper.

Monica Chan - so i remember i asked u out in like 7th grade but got denied hahaha. u thot of me as annoying b4 n our friendship was strange over the years. i think ive become tight wit u this year. i like being the person u vent to a lot haha. ur a cool ass person n hopefully our friendship doesnt fade on and off like it usually does.

Gaby Reyes - so i dint really talk to u till like this year but u ended up bein hella koo. i thot u wer a freshman wen u first came last year haha. sorry for makin those short jokes haha but u kno im just kiddin. just like ari i can go to u bout girl stuff n its ends up helpin me out. hopefully wer not just close cuz ur the only close person i kno in art haha but yeah a definetly a coo ass chick.

So uhh yeah these paragraphs wernt really detailed. i tried to keep em all pretty close in amount haha. but yeah u guys on the list really have been cool to me. even though some of u have treated me like shit u kno me im just tolerant of a lot of things. im glad shit has calmed down since n weve really grown up. some of u weve been through a lot of shit together. missions from bustys house to fukn home or just chillin weve been through a lot. im glad u guys r my friends n i cud never ask for better. peace out.

Mama Told Me

So i feel relieved now. Finally shit thats been held in from all of us for so long finally let out. It about time u dnt hav ppl to bounce back to n realize that u never kno watchu got till its gone. ahh i feel good rite now. peace out.

I'm like the hydrogen bond, shit gets heated and things separate. - Miggy Exconde

Letter to my brother, Miggy Exconde.

dear miggy, miggs, migay, migot hahaha. i have so much fucking homework rite now its crazy n its already like 11 but i think i need to send this to u. so i was talking to peter n kam. well kam especialy we wer on the fone for an hour reminisicin. n i must say well we fukn miss u dude. im not guna lie like wen u left a lot of us got mad cuz u did us dirty hella times in the past. but at least i kno that I realized how much u really meant to us. even though through all the bs we all went through it made us who we are. u changed as we grew older n in my opinion for the worse. u started talkin hella shit, bein lightweight shady to but in the end like we really came close again. wen u realized u wer really moving u realized hoo ur close niggas wer i guess? kam told me the nite we got out n u wer sobbin like a bitch jk =) u wer talkin about how times up n u wish u cuda kicked it wit us more. mannn imma miss u dude. it took me awhile to realize u wer gone. now all i really hope is to see u next summer. but lets back this shit up nigga. back in the days. so howd i meet chu idk? i think i met ur fam first haha cuz that nigga sellin blinds n shit. anyway i remember like u invivted me to ur party n i dint go ccuz i slept at marcus's hoouse. man i wish i went cuz look at yung mar now haha jkjk. but in the beginnin as i recall, me u n kam. triangle. us niggas never turned on each other. then u said to start ignoring him so i did cuz thats just how we was back in the days. anyway then u met peter n me n kam got hella jealous hahaha. n then marcus n brett came into the picture. matt came. all these niggas. anyway wat i mean to say is that even though u put me through a lot of shit i just have a high tolerance for ur shit. i guess its tough love? pat told me u still think im a faggit. i dnt care. nigga wer fukn brothers man. i fukn love u. u kam n peter u guys r the realest niggas foreal. we may not all be tight as we use to dude but we just got that unbreakable bond man. n dnt think we'll ever forget bout u. everytime u onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn aim im always up to talk to u mayne. i hope i dnt make u feel like an asshole cuz im talkin about all the shit u put us through but i just wana come out wit it now. anyways so back it up again. remember that one time wen i popped my tires n i thot ther wer needles in the grass? hahaha hella funny nigga! or that one time me u brett marcus rode around benicia all day. all our tires popped haha that day was a fukn mission. or how bout wen i got hella on at jasons but u n matt walked me home like sum real niggas. remember wen ur dad saw shaka n he was like, is that yo nigga? hahahah or wen ther was ultrasexmovies on the comp n we blamed it on rysal hahaha hella jacked up!! wuta bout that one time we wer at bustys house n we all left early except u haha. hmm wat else man. airsoft wars those wer aight. paintballin was kush. shit i remember wen i got my xbox first time i like secluded myself froom the world hahaha. then u gotttttt onnnnnnnnnnnn xbox n we was playin like on the daily doh. shit hella memories man. oh remmeber that one sleepover with dallis? hahahah n they got shit on kameron. that shit was soooooo funny!! hahahahhaa. but yeah man like if u wer still here, id have apush and lit wit u, man those classes wud b crackin to. anyways bro i really miss u. we all miss u. we'll never forget u. n i cant wait for yo ass to come here this summer n stay wit me nigga!! but i gotta get back to my homeworks nigga. peace out. i love you. no homo.

P.S. remember this shit?! hahahahaha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_d8e9mTeZs

Let It Loose

So basically the crew is fucked. guys we need to fucking grow up. certain niggas need to b straight up instead if ignorin each other about tthe problem at hand. its about time we fukn face shit instead of keepin shit on the dl like its nuthin. shady ass dude i dnt kno how we all still put wit it. i wana b tight wit u but at the same time its hard cuz ur shady as fuck to the other peeps. fukn up super hardcore. ahhhhhhhhhh we need to resolve this fucking civil war. peace out.

Memories don't live like people do. - Mos Def

Stronger Than

Me and Marcus covering Stronger Than by Gabe Bondoc. Enjoy!

Real Talk

I miss how things u use to be with the crew. i hate how shits split. like fukn last nite first time in a minute we all been together. shit was lightweight awkward. secrets n shit man wtf is happenin. i understand thers probs between sum peeps i think but idk. i just hate it man its pissin me off. n i hate being considered being part of one side of the crew bcuz i dnt want to be. i wanna b part of both. i try n stick with both but its just hard. sum ppl bitch wen im wit the other niggas n idk. i just wish it was the way it was. i think miggy really held us tight. wen he left we all kinda fell apart. i was hopin shit dint go dwn like it did. sum ppl just fucked our group over even more. not gonna say any names cuz i already kno sum shit that happened to other peeps but u feel me like our shits just fucked up rite now. i understand this entry sounds like a lot of cursing n shit haha but try n understand that im really just like mad about the situation rite now. i understand groups cant b together forever but i wish it wud mann. these r the years of change n well change is good, somtimes. this isnt really a change im feelin. anyway. im out.

The Pledge

I aim for the moon and I hit a falling star. - Naledge

Day of the Dead

Woke up early n kam swoops me. we get matt, tyler n marcus. head to xaviers house. all get a fresh cut. finna start gellin ma hair i guess. fresh x dnt disappoint! haha anyways they leave a bit earlier than me. mom swoops me. see sum fam. go to grandmas house. post for a bit. read a buncha her bible stuff cuz it looks intriguing. she has hella notes down n stuff, the world finna end may 2011 and the world is 13000 years old haha thats wat it said on her notes. left. home n shower. jason comes over rite quick. cj swoops me. we swoop his friend lucy. jamba juice. they trick o treat or howeever u spell that round eagle ridge that area for like 30 mins. i just post up at my homie nick's house havent seen him in a minute we go back to kindergarten. he had to leave so me n jason just post up at the evo. i get dropped off at matts. brett swoops us wit marcus. head to my casa. peter mando n convey ther already. aj n monica come n go. the rest of us go inside my house n chill. ari n ann come. go back outisde. monica n aj come back. me brett nick leave n swoop danica. head to glen cove safeway. meet up wit ari, matt, otis, marcus n ann ther. brett n danica leave. rest of us head to the haunted house. meet these dudes byron n mohammed, seniors at bethel. kinda like we knew em already well nick kinda did but u feel me? they was hella koo. anyway we walk to the house n shit. take a pic. realize that shit aint even scary. we scare more ppl coming to the house. my n byron fuck wit ppl. we get kicked out by the park ranger. he was koo tho it cuda been worse. also i dropped my ipod in a bush n he helped me find it so hes a beast for that. leave n go to sum party. hella heads. like HELLA heads. basically regroup wit the previous peeps. swig sum henn from my homie mike hes a beast for that. uhh we dip n drop off otis n ann. head to nicks. me ari matt n nick basically post in his room for hella long. just talk really. fun shit. pics. go home. now im chillin. so yeah im really content. got my haircut finaly today n it was pretty crackin kickin it wit every1. nothins even botherin me rite now. cant wait to fukn sleep haha. its only 1:15 cuz of daylight saving time woooo!!!!!!!! well outie. n i wud pics up but ther too big n i dnt wana shrink em rite now haha super lazy. ight foreal outie.

It's like sunshine on a rainy day. - Melanie Fiona