Distant Relatives

13 more days of school. Got myself a job now. Summer is gonna be dope!

I drink poison, and I vomit diamonds. - K'naan

I got a Story to Tell

So, I'm chillin' here with my homie stavo. But anyway he told me this story about some chick that we've known for the longest time and her sister started doing hardcore drugs and shit like meth/crack status, got kicked out of school and shit. Now the chick we know found out that her mom has cancer and my homie stavo said basically to just keep your head up and pray, cherish the moments you have with your loved ones, blah blah blah. One of his other homies like, so they were just chillin' in the car at a red light then all of a sudden a tree just fell on the car but they survived. Like that's some crazy ass shit like who would think that you could just be chillin' at a red light one day and have a tree just fall on you. But we really realized that like all these people around us, like hella shit is just happening to everyone. Everybody be drinkin', smokin', doing dumbass shit, dumbass shit happening to them and I know that makes me sound like a hypocrite but it's just reality. Also like we're all gonna know somebody maybe close maybe not, maybe even you, but you still finna know the person and who knows they might end up having like HIV, dying of a car crash, dying just cause, getting diagnosed of cancer, getting locked up, shit we already know people that got locked up. We know people that literally if we told them right now to kill someone, they'd knock them down. But basically, this shit is just life, it's reality, it's real. Like right now, sitting in this room, me and my homie could just die for any reason. Life is short, life is just a moment in time. We gotta cherish every moment we got on this planet with everybody else we cherish life with cause one day you never know what could happen. Shit happens, life happens, sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. Live life to the fullest and never look back. You gotta learn to live life with regrets, you gotta do what you gotta do basically. Keeping your head in the past and worrying about the future, you'll never be able to just enjoy the moment you got right now.

This is the number one rule for your set, in order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets. On the, rise to the top, many drop, don't forget, in order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets. - Jay-Z

Slow Down

Haven't posted in awhile. AP exams this Friday then again on Monday and it's over. Still got to take SAT II subject tests. Got a 1580 on the SAT, lightweight disappointed but it's whatever I might take it again. Seems like the homies are thinking about getting jobs to I might have to get in on this haha. Hopefully I pass the "test" if I get hired haha. Lately life has been pretty cool. The crew is never gettin' into shady ass bullshit anymore, grades is cool, weather seems like it's gonna start looking nice again and summer is a month away. I've been thinkin' though how all my friends are hooked up with a chick right now and I'm not, it's kinda funny cause these girls they be hookin' up with are dumb as fuck haha. On the real though like they are just blind to the obvious, not gonna mention any names but the homies know whom I be speaking of. Kinda not just been giving a fucks lately, been really open minded, I've just been a chill ass dude lately. But back to the chick thing, so I kinda feel like the "search" is ending, and not that I've found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow but I feel like I'll just never find it haha. I don't what it is, am I just looking to far or could it just be like right in front of my face or something? Idk like it's whatever yet it still bothers me at times when I just be sittin' there chillin' as in right now haha. Been pretty lazy to recently, always tired cause I procrastinate homework till like 11 or 12 at night haha. Right now I'm just taking life as it comes at me, who knows what's finna happen next you know? This is probably gonna be my last blog for awhile considering the fact that I never blog anymore :(. Like I said a nigga been hella lazy lately haha. Outie!

Never chase girls, chase dreams first. - Chiddy Bang

Break A Dawn

Keep this short and sweet. PROM WAS FUCKIN' CRACKIN'! Didn't get home till 6. Outie.

All this purple weed it got me messed up, all this hennessey is gon' catch up, got me loadin' up hollows in my rottle cause I swear I seen the devil at the bottom of the bottle. - Shady Nate

Roadbeaters.

Damn. Life. This is the shit.

You can tell that I'm somewhere in the building on my Batman shit nigga suspended from the ceiling. - Curren$y

Days Like These

Cause the things you lose could be the things you miss
No one could prepare you for the days like this
You could have a lost one you could lose a loved one
Be thankful for what you got and everybody have fun.
- Thes One

Life Is Better

Haven't blogged in a minute yo. Damn so we got like tomorrow then friday, then 4 days next week then we on spring break! Still hella whack though compared to the other schools in the area, they're already on break for 2 weeks while we only get 1 week. Finally started driving again plus my birthday is coming up soon! Well over the weekend me and some peeps had a conversation about how we've all really grown up. Like people say we're immature blah blah blah but like do we act like shit that we're not? Nope. Plus we really are like the deepest people a person could probably talk to. Most people nowadays are really shallow. Not gonna say any names but like sometimes it's kinda hard to go deep with them you know? Then we also went on in the conversation about real people and shit. Not really gonna go in depth on that one though. I've also learned that my confidence has really built since like middle school haha. Seery-yos though like I'm not afraid to yell my fucking heart out anymore. Like stav said we really just hit that age were we just don't give a fuck what other people think anymore. You know like some people say oh i don't give a fuck about the haters blah blah blah but they just say that shit to act hard and what not. But this shit right here is like some real shit. Like you shouldn't care what people think about you, you should care what your close friends think though. Like foreal friends are really the greatest things that were placed on this earth for you. Friends got you through the best and worst of times and hopefully you got them to. I believe you don't only reflect your parents or the people who raised you but more to the side of your surroundings. Since i spend a lot of time around my homies they're really who kinda made me what i am now. We all have a little bit of each other inside haha no homo though. But i don't know what i'd do without my friends. Even though the past weekends have been whack it feels good that i have homies who i can hit up or they hit me back. Some people i don't know what the future holds for us. You guys just gonna peace out and be done with us after high school or what? All i know is even though we're gonna go our separate ways next year, we still finna be homies. People say like oh we'll still be best friends forever after high school blah blah blah but you know what i don't think it can really happen unless you end up in the same place as them which is highly unlikely depending on what your pursuit is. But years from now it's just like the present, i got homies who i use to kick it with back in middle school, elementary but i know some of them are the realest dudes that are still there for me. Some people just fade to black when you don't chop it up with them no more, hang out etc... but these dudes is different. Like connections with certain people are just hella good that you could be distant from them for a long ass time but they'll still be your dude you know? But damn yo this blog is getting a little too long haha I need to get back to my chemistry though. Outie 5000!